My life before I had a baby was considered my own. I was laid back and pretty much worry free. When I wanted to go somewhere, I would just get up and go. I could stay out as long as I wanted to. If I wanted to get crazy with my friends, I could. My friends where always around and we were going here and there constantly. I didn't answer to anyone but me. All I had to worry about was what I wanted and needed. My life was mine and mine only. My time was mine and only mine. Everything revolved around my feelings and me. I know I sound selfish but I think everyone is at that age. Before Austin came, if I wanted to sleep late or just lay around the house in my pajamas I could. I have found that when a bay comes along, that your life is not yours anymore. Your whole outlook and responsibilities change about everything and everyone. Matter of fact, your whole way of thinking changes automatically without hesitation. Your life changes the instant you hear the first cry.
             My life since my son, Austin, has been born has been right the opposite of my life before. It has been a total turn around but I cannot imagine my life without him in it. I would not trade all the time for me for it. I feel that he filled an empty space that I had. Life is totally different. I have someone who depends on me. I also have plenty to worry about now. Before him all I worried about was what to wear and now its does he have enough to eat, clothes to wear, diapers, or is he feeling alright. Before he came along it seemed to be me and no one else. Now it is him and his wants and needs. I never thought I could move over and let someone else's needs come before mine. I think Austin has brought out the best in me, not that I was at my worst before. It is just a fact that your concept about what is right and wrong. Everything in between doesn't matter anymore. All that matters is that the baby is totally dependant on you. What you are going to wear, do...