A peculiar and unique character, Winston Smith often fantasized about his utopia and dreamt about past events throughout the novel 1984, by George Orwell. In a world where everyone was controlled decided for you, Winston relied on his subconscious mind to maintain his sanity.
             Winston's occupation consisted of rewriting history in a department for the Party. However his memories of the past usually conflicted with that of the Party's twisted version. Winston was very confused about whether or not he was losing his mind. His dreams revealed the reality of the Party and the truth of the past, enabling him to trust his own instinct of what was right and wrong, keeping it clear in his mind what the past was really like. In one dream Winston envisioned his mother and his baby sister sinking into a well or lowering off the side of a ship - he wasn't quite sure. He felt as if they were being sucked towards death. He knew they were sacrificing their lives for his own. Winston realizes "...that his mothers death, nearly 30 years ago, had been tragic and sorrowful in a way that was no longer possible" (Orwell 28). He believed that the feelings of tragedy, privacy, love, and friendship were things of past times. The memory of his mother's death saddened him because he knew that she had died loving him, while he was too young and selfish to comprehend this. The loyalty his mother had for him ded not exist in 1984. There was only fear and hatred and pain.
             Winston had another dream of the disappearance of his mother. He remembered a time of chaos and depression when he was about ten or twelve years old. His father had disappeared sometime earlier. Food was scarce but his mother did what she could to comfort her children. Winston was always hungry, driving him to steal bits of food from his sister's plate. "He knew he was starving the other two, but he couldn't help it; he even felt he had a right to do it" (Orwell 134). A chocolate ration h...